a little more about me

A little back round- name is Jesse I grew up in the bay area -I came from a broken family parents divorced as child. mom quit school an held down work to keep a place to sleep and food to eat. Anyone can relate to feelings worthlessness, abandonment and anger at times…that comes from the lack of a dad in yr life. I learned early to suppress my feelings in life I just would push it all in like it didn’t matter. These bottled up feelings manifest in my behavior at a young age. Eventually, i had no authoritative figure in my life and did as i pleased.

My mom began to attend church as a kid I went, but as I got older I lashed out in rebellion. i started hanging with kids all over the bay getting in all types trouble i was on a mission of mayhem kicked out of 7th grade getting blazed an sloshed was my new pastime. I was sent to continuation w/the older heads. Soon getting arrested for stealing from malls (we called it 5finger discount), vandalism and break in robbery but was never charged by the grace of God. Same story high school -kicked out went right back to the same continuation, partying not going to school not going home livin recklessly, but this would soon come to a halt.

My moms got scared because of all the stuff I pulled-finding stashes an things when id leave, tryin to grow bud, arrests, truancy, etc i didnt care about my future. soon after cops raided her house I was committed to the hands of a pastors who knew our family for alog time(Bob & Ceci). I was just turning 17 had know idea what was in store for me…and how I would b changed –I was off to the home. There I was in the program 1999…and familiar w/church somehow alot of what was being said made sense. For the most part I respected them and just did as required and felt id b out soon. I felt like it all was extreme and how could anyone live like that.

What ended up happing is soon I decided to give my life to the Lord. i began to release old hurts and receive deliverance from the evils that plagued my mind... I think a year later got involved with EG. This is a intense hands on discipleship ministry. Here’s a few things from what I remember during EG- 5 fold, traveling all over, skits, volunteer work, it was great. i saw visions in prayer that would come to pass, to speaking a foreign language that I didn’t know- ministering to a man that didn’t speak English that was listening to me pray who could actually understand me and said I led him to Christ (speaking in tongues) , to Africa , to a revelation graduating day of EG 1st yr ACTS ch. 3:1-10 it was as if GOD was showing me this in my life, “GET UP- come pass the gates called beautiful!” Just some of the things I will never forget. Their r personal burdens that r on my heart for life, like the fatherless, giving yr life to a just cause, to passion, purity and purpose it goes on and on…there’s a lot I don’t know but this I know I have been in the company of world changers i am constantly reminded of this standard. i felt truly blessed. I enjoyed working w/ others at pulling resources together to accomplish a common goal. This built character.

ITS been a long road of change with ups and downs, but one thing I know beyond a shadow of a doubt through this ministry God changed me forever! I believe as we put actions to the WORD our purpose will find us and we will reach our destiny!

Their r things i have witnessed that money cant buy u, doctors cant fix for u, pains drank & drugs cant num away from u, that only JESUS CHRIST can heal and can deliver u from!!! This has been my encounter w/Jesus Christ -GLORY TO GOD- He CAN keep u, bring u peace when it don’t make sense, strengthen u, RAISE U UP AND CARRY U TO THE MIRACULOUS WHEN U CAN NOT WALK YR SELF!!!

whats amazing to me when i look bac is now i do care about my future i do have good relationship my parents, i do look to Godly influences in my life, i dont drink or use and im a working class guy trin to do things right, and i know it is only by Gods grace that i am not lockedup or dead- thats all for now