Sinful Gd life

Hello brothers and sisters in Christ! My name is Michael.  I joined just yesterday. I would like to give my testimony, and with prayer may change someones life. Growing up I lived with my mom who loaded bombs on the USS Kitty Hawk. She grew up with out God. She met my step dad who grew up Luthern. We lived on Whidby Island in Washington. We had moved around alot. Because they both were in the Navy. We finaly came back to Grand Rapids MI where i was born and where most of our family was. My step dads family was a very respectable family here. My moms was a very poor family. We grew up bearly scrapping by as well. I went to a private luthern school (st. james luthern). But i never really payed any attention. I believed in God my entire life, yet still never relized how much He really mattered. After certain areas and events in the neighborhoods we lived in my mom and step dad decided to move to the country. About 20 minutes north of Grand Rapids. My brother Robert was always a little hoodlum. He listened to the local and hardest rappers, smoked weed and cigerrets. Went to parties and got in fights and went to jail. I looked up to him. At the age of 14 i started to relize that i had a different father than my two sisters. Me and my brother had the same. As soon as i started to get a urge to find out who my real father was arguing inclined between me and my parents. Seeing my brother fight with them didnt help. So i started doing worse than i already was doing in school. Got kicked out of my moms house at 15. I then started couch surfing for the next couple years. I couldnt stay with one friend or family for more than 3 to 4 months. I wouldnt feel right. I started smoking cigerrets and drinking. I was following in my brothers footsteps. At the age of 18 i met my biological father. I thought finaly, after all these years of trying to find him! At that time i was smoking weed, drinking, i was affiliated with Gd's in Grand Rapids. I would steal, break into houses, sell illeagle movies along with porn. I lived in a crack trailer park. the trailer i lived in had two tiny rooms, broken down walls. no clean water. I had an army bag full of everything i owned. My bio dad came and picked me up as soon as i called him. He lived on a huge lake in a huge house in Portage MI. And he smoked weed and drank. I was so excited and at the time i thought was happy! Almost like life couldnt get any better. A few months went by, but one night we got in a huge fight and he told me to leave. I moved back up to Grand Rapids with my old friend Xochitl. She was an old love. We got together a little after me moving in. I started to hang with my old friends on the north who were Gd's. She didnt like any of that. We moved in with my Aunt Lisa and thats where our daughter Metlzi was concieved. I made a decision that we should move to Kalamazoo near my dad, because i might beable to find a job. Didnt work, she moved back up to GR with my other aunt. I couldnt find a job so i moved back again also. I lived with my Gd friend and sometimes had to sleep on the street. I finaly decided to see if Xochitl would give me another chance. She did. So i moved in with her at my aunts. Come to find out she liked her old boyfriend. but wasnt sure. So she then moved into her moms a month after we got back together. My life crumbled. I started getting angry at everything. Smoking more and more weed, stealing more and more things. I was becoming a real G. One day i went to go get some smoke at a friends house and ended up spending the night with her. She told me she was pregnant and so i stayed to try and see if i could make things right this time. We moved into a ghetto little motel on the SW side. We decided to steal something for some smoke and drink cuz we didnt have any money. A day after we did that my daughter was born. I wasnt there much at all. I could sense the tension with my family. 4 days after Metzli was born the cops showed up to my house. They arrested me and took me to Kent County Jail. I sat in there for a month and a half. That doesnt seem like a long time. While in jail i started to pray, and think about my life and my daughter. and how God has given me a step dad who was fit to raise me in Christ! I relized that the life i lived was exactly like my bio dads life. Who never could keep a child of his or a wife. I made a commitment to God. This is the last time i will defile your name Lord. A little into the second month that i was in jail, my mom, aunt, and step dad came to bail me out. From that day till now i do my best to be faithful in Christ!!! Although i am a human i still lust after women, still have an urge to have anger and live the life i youst to live. But God always reminds me of where that lead me. I had a  10 year sentence and now i am facing probation. How wonderful and merciful is our God. That he would take a man like me and transform me, and save me, and .... love me!!! I now see my daughter almost everyday, i have been clean for 3 almost 4 months, i go to church and i pray that God will give me Xochitl back so we can be a family! I guess after this long message, im trying to say that have hope in God, if your ways dont agree with Gods, throw it away. God is a God of mercy, love, and forgivness! I pray everyone comes to find this!

God Bless you all! And Glory to God in the highest!!!!!!!