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My Testimony (about me)

My Testimony (about me) First I desire and want all the Glory and Honor to be fully given to our LORD God and Savior Jesus Christ. Without Him I would not be the person I am today or even alive. I grew up in Oakland California and I lived near the church I love and adore back in California, before moving out to Phoenix Arizona. In fact I lived just across the street from the pastor who's back yard she had converted into a park for the church and street kids of the block. So I lived quite literarily next to the church. It was like a little island, I was surrounded by Asians some Whites, and then are little island was surrounded by everyone else. The blacks and Latino people, most of the Hispanics were Mexican and we just had are very own strange little island of different people. Back then when I was just a kid, race didn't matter to me back then. We were all people responsible for our own actions. I knew there were people that hated other people because of the color or culture, or creed, but I didn't see it that way. I love history, which is really better said, HIS Story. I knew of how the blacks were once slaves here in America and that the Hispanics were taken advantage of before on a number of occasions. So quite naturally I said to myself if anyone gives them trouble or tries to oppress them or hurt them, I'll defend them, I'll be a friend for them. A friend that they can count on to defend them and love them without hesitation because their different from them, who understands them. Well, I found out soon enough, that I was lied to, yes, there are racist and yes they still get taken advantage of in some places, sometimes. But I found out at a very young age that we were being lied to. The issue of rights had exploded into rights for people to sin and do terrible acts that would have our Founding Fathers roll over in their graves if they knew what was going on now. I needed help! Not them, not the other way around. Just so you know, I am not racist I am merely giving the account of my testimony. I was the one that needed protecting, and of course seeing I was white I did not get help. Yeah, somehow it was all my fault. I remember, later when I was about 15 years old. I told this kid to go back to Mexico if he didn't like America and what it was founded on, if he didn't like the God this nation was founded on or if he didn't want to learn Our language. The reason why I say Our language much like the Chinese say Our Land. Is that we are a people of all sorts of ethnicity, and of every race color and background. We are a very mixed people, and Our Language is that of English. Now did I have a problem with the fact the guy spoke Spanish, no I took Spanish class myself. He simply talked terrible things about this country and had only good things to say about illegal Aliens and Mexico and gangs and criminal activity and the drug Cartels and demeaned women...he also refused to speak English with me and said I should learn his language. He also couldn't even curse me out in English, but in Spanish. I told him if he really didn't like it here and wanted a dictator and to do whatever the heck he wanted to do to women to go back to Mexico and that its at least legal or widespread there...the teacher though, ah yes, but of course if I explained myself. Nope, didn't think I had a right to tell him that, the funny or ironic thing was that political correctness is so toxic, she defended him and not me, in part because I happened to be white...yeah she was a woman, you think she'd stand up for women's rights or something, but being politically correct was more important to her. My dad spoke with her and gave her a respectable dousy of a lecture when he found out about what had happened. I remember defending many people and girls. I defended a woman's, honor many times, only to be turned on by them. Either they thought that that was just the way things worked, or being politically correct was more important to them than simply what was right and what was wrong, even if it went against them. In particular because I was white. But, before any of this happened you should know the part of my testimony that is where my heart and character all come from or use to, and what use to and in a way still does give me my drive (Though, now I have a few new reason's that give me my drive...). when I was a little kid, just a little tieck, I was raped and molested by a very big, very strong black man. It destroyed me, you see I didn't need to know that sex was sacred or virginity valuable. I had instinct and something inside of me that said that I had to defend this. I don't remember much, but I fought and he would knock me unconscious and I would go in and out of consciousness and when I was the least bit awake I would fight again. This happened until he was done or something like that. I remember it wasn't long after that I started to do things that were not Godly. It is also the time when I was approached by a group of guys, they offered me power wisdom and understanding and a chance for revenge, vengeance...I said yes immediately. Now I was saved at the time, I got saved after getting spanked back when I was 2 years old. However, now at 5, I made a chose. Some may say oh well you didn't really know what you were doing, or you couldn't understand, or you were never really saved. Yes I was, and I freely chose to give it away, and deny it. You see, yes we can never lose it, as in it getting stolen from us, but, because of free will we can always chose to give it up, as we did chose to receive it. They were Satanists, and I joined them gladly, they made sure I understood what I was doing when I renounced Jesus...and they were really real man, I mean the real deal, not some I hate God and everyone else and it's all about me and do as thou wilt. These guys, and back then, myself had great power. They are all a part of this big ONE World Government dealio and all the heads of particular powerful and important groups would meet with them...I will not go into the names of the exact people or groups that meet us, it was legit. They were the real deal smack Kevin steel. And for those of you who think the one world government is coming out of Europe somewhere or America, you have just no clue as to what you are talking about. But anyways, I was a Satanists for over 10 years, I knew I would be brought to a desert and that I would go to rehab way ahead of time. I was one of the smarter and more powerful ones at one point I believe, and in part due to the fact I did not come against what I'll call the untouchables, or God's chosen ones or mantle pieces or vessels or whatever you want to call them. However, when God spoke to me, and said your done, now you will walk in the light of your destiny my son/child of God (beloved), and I will put you on the path to your destiny, that I have ordained for you from the dawn of time, and my purpose for you, shall be your purpose. You must now begin a new journey for you have now come o the end of the road of this one, and you can get nothing more out of it. I screamed out to him at the top of my lungs NO and I swore every word I could and said I would destroy Him. Needless to say, He took all of my powers away and I was worthless, when you have a lot of powers, and especially after years of getting use to them and now to have none, you are very weak...so I was told I would go to rehab and that I would become one of them, I of course said no, but we all know how that turned out...I was in Teen Reach for 4 1/2 months. I did change, I even rededicated my life back to Christ. You see we can always come back to Christ Jesus, if we should return towards Him, then He shall save us and not turn us away. My parents moved out to Phoenix Arizona, and that was three weeks after going back to Cal. I still had a lot to grow out of through HIS time and patience. I still said that if God showed me who my wife is or would be, I would kill her simply because I did not want God's will for my life. I should also mention, that from the time I had been raped, I had two very different personalities. Me and this other one created and birthed out of the bitter painful event of my being raped. So now with me in the hot seat of control over my body and God, in particular kept my other side from figuring out who that was. You see the other side I had lived for the kill, revenge vengeance and sex. It just stood and survived for those very reasons', it above all wanted to kill the man that had hurt us both...it would be freed at that tantalizing moment from this world of pain it knew and would cease to exist through either instantaneously or through merely fading away. I over time began to realize who that was...(I'm not going to explain that one for sure, for multiple reason's.) Oh, and one more thing, years before I had left Oakland, I did become racist, however, if somebody else was I'd ask them why, and since none usually had a reasonable answer I beat the crap out of them for just simply being a stupid idiot. It took a long time and years to get over this, it was very painful. I remember hearing how a man stated that the racisms in a particular city he once lived in was so bad, that it made his daughter cry, and she was a tough nut and everything. I had already gotten over being racist and even then it would have hurt...but yeah I was angry, I wanted to go up to her and say if anybody gives you a hard time, anybody, you come to me, and I'll deal with them. But, I didn't ever do that but, if I ever saw that I most certainly would. I guess I'm just some crazy guy or something, I don't know maybe, maybe I'm just nuts I don't know, but I'll tell ya, I'm an odd fellow. That's just what my brother would say. Less than a year after we graduated the hardest thing that could ever happen, happened. I lost my brother, he died. His name was Jeffery Brian Rogers, but I often called him Jeff as did many of his friends and family members. No, he is not my biological brother, but there could be no one closer. He committed Suicide on March 3, 2009. I, I remember I had just spoken to him, 30 mins. to about 2 hours before he killed himself, I still have the texts and the logged phone calls. We were planning on going out to a gun show so he and I could get a scope, though he really wanted one I didn't really need one yet...We had planned our entire lives around each other. I don't know quite what else to say but the rest of my testimony. Now I had been addicted to pornography since I was about 5 or 8 years old, and well guys know what else you do, naff said. I had begun to go closer towards my destiny now, and by the way Jeff was 19 years old at the time and I was 20. So, about 9 months to a year later I had really rededicated my life to Christ and was going to serve God full heartedly. I chose God, I made a choice, and I chose God. I then got a mentor, named Zack Fields, and started working through the porn addictions along with the other worse addictions which started just right after I got raped. At 21 now I am fully serving God. I also still had some tough choices to still make though. But, in a way they were quite easy, or at least one of them sort of was. I am very well to put it mildly, I am very interested in this girl and I spoke with her father. didn't go over so well. But when I was asked to give her up, like Abraham did with his only hope of his dreams and aspirations, and covenant with God coming true. He was told by God go sacrifice your son the one I have brought (or given) to you and give him back to me. I did then, and I still have to every day, and yeah it is hard, very hard. But HE's teaching me, about love, about her and about Him and HIS Kingdom, and how it works. I chose God, yet once again over her, and he said that over the entire time I was learning to love by letting another girl go (which was really practice as I really avoided the one I want to marry and don't ask why, that's so complicated it would outweigh the dictionary.). I also discovered that God was teaching me the whole time, on how to truly Love Him. God that was so good, I didn't even see it coming. Well, I've even gone as far as to say LORD if at all possible, then let it work out. But, Father not my will but Yours be done. But, God remember me, do not forget me nor the very person I would give anything to be just a part of her life and that of her families. But, Your will not mine be done, You oh LORD must find the answers for me, You already know best (they could actually make a song out of a few of those lines for some famous play or movie or something but anyways.). I also had to chose God yet once again over my hair. You see, having very long hair and not cutting it is in a lot of my cultural backgrounds, I'm from a number of different countries. Having Long hair is the honor and glory of a man, in particular a warrior or someone of royalty...it is the pride of a man and displays his position and authority, naf said...God asked me for it, and I said, ok. God, sure thing, if you want me to cut it or shave it, its' Yours. Three times I chose God, over things that I wanted or loved, hence true sacrifice and true love, and true honor. I have been blessed with getting out of pornography, though its' been difficult, I definitely sensed that I had some big bad demons that had to tempt me recently, and I still overcame them...wow, God is starting to speed things up lately. I have been learning to surrender completely to God, and I now have watched my father's business come to the point were now he's about to go public with it and make hefty profits, not within the first 10 or 5 or even couple of years. But, within the very first year. All because I surrendered myself completely over to HIS will. I have almost completely overcome the other addiction associated with pornography. I still look forward to having God come to me and meet me in the very same way, HE meet her, the woman of my dreams. That He would show Himself to me and I would have an even more intiement relationship with Him. So, so far that is my testimony in a bit of a nut shell and as small and simply put as possible. SO thank you for your time and hopefully we can all reach our dreams and goals, but never can we fully obtain them purely unless it is Jesus' will for our lives, I hope this enriches all of your lives, it certainly was very hard to come out with and write, and God Bless. Long Live Yeshua and the House of EL.

Full Name

Daniel Joseph Gasch

City:

Phoenix

State:

AZ

Zip Code

85032

Country

USA

Website:

http://fatherdag@msn.com

Facebook or MySpace URL

http://fatherdag@msn.com

Relationship Status:

Single

Gender

Male

How did you hear about us?

I got an e-mail from Bobby Torries I believe, and I go to Spirit Life Church

What is your Christian faith level?

On Fire for Jesus

Your Home Church & Location?

Spirit Life Church