Trust in the Lord with your whole heart and lean not on your own understanding Proverbs3:5

My Testimony (about me)

God is so Good!! Here's my story.. I grew up in a christian home and always knew about God, I knew there was a Heavan and Hell. And that if you lied you would go to hell.. Well that was the extent of it I didnt have a real realtionship with my savior I just knew he was always there.. Well at the age of 14 my parents were getting a divorce I soon turned on God because I said how could you do this to me.. Of course I blamed him and I soon turned to rebellion. Which that was boys, weed, alcohol. I was very hurt and depressed and found things to try to fill the hurt. Well those were temporary things, and God was the only one who could really fix me and give me a new heart a new me..!! Inside I was wanting a savior. Well I went into a Christian rehab which was Teen Reach at the time and Now is Second Chance. I Thank God for Bob and Ceci because of there obidence to God and the heart that they have to help hurting and lost people like I was once. Well I finished the program and it was time for me to go home well going back to Cali meant back to high school old friends. I tried getting involved in my youth group and well our belives were different I soon got very confused on what I thought I had known the Truth.. And I gave up quickly I didnt want to be a lukewarm christian. So I threw in the towel and began to serve The Devil.. I soon got into drinking more than before and weed was a everyday thing. And I had wanted to keep my viriginty till marriage but because of the infleunces in my life I quickly changed my mind and lost it to someone who didnt deserve it at all. A boy who didnt even love me.. I soon hated myself for that and became more depressed and hurt and sucidal thoughts. I began to feel so numb nothing inside... I became a alcoholic very fast and fornication was just the thing i did i didnt care about my self anymore.. Well on Aug 18.07 I was so sick of what I had become I was in desperate need of a Savior I was so lost so hurt.. I had put God in a box for 7 years and turned from him completly.. He Got a hold me!! I gave my life completley to him... I soon joined Elijah Generation a bible college, and was on fire for God and began to have this amazing realtionship with him like never before.. Well In Jan 08 things werent going so good for me I began to fill empty again my cup had been overflowing for so long but I soon felt it empty. Well I had a slip up and I went and got drunk one night and I regreted it I thought thats what I wanted but that didnt even fufill me.. Well if you all havent heard Bob's sermon on romantic realtionships you really need to.. Well I had a "just friend" and we became really good friends and we began to have a realtionship.. I started to completly loose my focus on God and give all my attention to this boy.. And I gave him my heart my everything It had seemed so right and my will seemed really good too.. Now We all know that our" Will" leads to destruction death.. Well I soon found myself so far from God back in my old lifestyle of smoking weed, drinking and fornicating. And I was in love.. But deep down I was hurting again mad at myself for getting back to this place that i didnt want to be... My prayer was God help me!! And he was always there no matter what! He picked me up and wiped away all my sins and shame and made me a new creation in him again, eventhough it hurt I layed down that realtionship that thing that had taken the place of MY GOD!! No more! God will always come first. His will is the perfect will.. .... I love you Jesus!!! Matthew 22:37 say" you shall love the Lord your God will all your heart,soul, mind"

Full Name

Rocie Gonzalez

City:

Scottdale

State:

AZ

Zip Code

85254

Country

UNITED STATES MINOR OUTLYING ISLANDS

Website:

http://rociegonzalez@gmail.com

Relationship Status:

Engaged

Gender

Female

How did you hear about us?

Spirit Life Church

What is your Christian faith level?

On Fire for Jesus

Your Home Church & Location?

Spiritlife Church