In everything, give thanks..

CAPTURED HAPPINESS

There are times when I just sat down, relaxed and closed my teary eyes. What am I before? A face that smiles a million times, a personality that appreciate everything and have control to everything that surrounds me. My biggest problem was just to pass a computational exam. Days passed as I grew older, problem goes bigger and everything seems jumbled and disoriented. I’m not the person I was before. Nobody is perfect and every mistake is a continuous learning process. One night I knelt down, bowed my head, closed my eyes and asked forgiveness. I love Him so much and again, I crushed His heart because of selfish desires a lifetime I would regret. It is so easy to obey Him, but temptation…

Why do things get complicated?

why do why gets exaggerated?

why do tears flow unexpected?

why do hurt feels unlimited?

my brain is bursting

and i feel like dying

the nerves get coiled

and insanity is coming

laughing is the best medicine

but it makes my condition worsten

praying and hoping

for the memory to vanish

flashbacks like screen

and i hate to watch in

loneliness to insanity

insanity to dying

breath of the morning breeze

each day passing

slowly touching the eyes that have been crying

wet thing that looks nothing

but comes from the heart that continues fighting…

The more you practice giving your mental burdens to the Lord, the more exciting it gets to see how God will handle the things that are impossible for you to do anything about.

from the book written by Elisabet Elliot, "Passion and Purity"

"what do you want more than anything else?" i asked. "God's choices or your own?"

"God's of course." "what if He should choose for you a man who was poor and homely?"

"oh, but he wouldn't!" "why not?"

"because He loves me."

" I see. then He will give the poor and homely man only to a woman he doesn't love?"

"oh but--" "or--think about this one--does He love the poor, homely man? if so, will HE give him an ugly woman? or might He give him a beautiful one?"…

When life seems like a wheel

There are ups and downs

and still the ups feel like down

no direction, thirst of happiness,

loneliness of unfair circumstances

hearts that left unfixed

we seldom ask why? we took the initiative by doing something

trying to fix the gaps between

trying to preserve whats left unbroken

trying to do something that is not worth helping

trying and trying until tears bursting

hearts slowly dying and emotions are mixing

opening our palms,asking for blessings blessings

that comes like raindrops poured by heaven above but when grasp

it escapes,and left that small drop.

what if Your healing comes to tears?

what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes…